Dysphoric Mania

Stuck in a grey reality I have no energy, no time, no desire for anything, yet I so desperately need something I need to feel but what I need to feel needs to be more than this Smoking, drinking, music, escape, nothing works I begin to reject this stale existence, far more captivated by my own mind Thoughts, memories, desires, dreams, hopes, delusions. It is better here But it is not enough. I chase the high, feet firmly still on the ground The feeling I desire the most, the me I want to become again, it’s all so close and … Continue reading Dysphoric Mania